Thoughts from the Slop
The High
Life was good.
Work ticking along.
Goals on track.
Routine locked in.
Running 50km a week. Gym 2–3 times. Strong. Sharp. Alive.
I took it for granted. I didn’t realise how lucky I was to feel that way — physically and mentally.
The Crash
Then boom. One day it shifted.
- I woke up tired.
- The gym wiped me out — three days to recover from a session that once felt easy.
- Sleep was poor.
- Good habits slipped. Bad habits crept in.
- Running wasn’t fun anymore.
Nothing had changed at home or at work.
But mornings became a fight.
The 04:49 wake-up was gone. I needed an alarm just to drag myself out of bed.
The mind wanted it. The body said no.
“It was like putting diesel in a petrol car. I was coughing and spluttering to work.”
The Fight
Brain fog.
Simple actions suddenly complicated.
Stiffness from lack of exercise.
Weight creeping up.
Food and red wine stepping in as comfort.
I took time off work. Burnout, I thought. But rest didn’t fix it.
So I tracked everything:
- Sleep
- Food
- Alcohol
- Mood
- Tinnitus
- Exercise and recovery
Oura ring. Garmin watch. Journals. Data everywhere.
But no matter what I tweaked, nothing changed.
Light weights. High reps. Still smashed.
I simply bought new clothes to fit the new me.
The Discovery
Late one night I found Dr Robert Stevens on YouTube.
Sat in his car, ranting about earning your reward.
I binge-watched. I listened. I applied. Still nothing.
Months later, I finally ran my blood work.
Bosh. Testosterone low. Super low.
I read up on symptoms. Looked in the mirror. It was me.
I emailed the men’s health clinic. Asked for help.
That was the turning point.
The Fix
Now I microdose testosterone and HCG.
Four years later, I’m almost as fit as I was in the military at 20. Now 53.
I’ve rebuilt piece by piece:
👉 Food → Exercise → Sleep → Stress → Mind.
Not easy. Worth it. Absolutely.
The Lesson
It wasn’t me that was broken.
It was my hormones. Out of sync.
Now? I feel like a proper human again.
Below are the details for the Doc. I get nothing from him or the clinic for writing this. I write it because I value and appreciate what I have now in my life.
www.youtube.com/@drrobertstevens
The Mens Health Clinic – www.themenshealthclinic.co.uk
“Health is wealth. And like the Doc says — Earn your reward.”
